HONEST Rant

Hello Guys

I am extremely sorry for the long break . 

A lot has happened .

To update you guys , I am in 11th grade now.

I have changed schools .

And honestly all of this frustrates me .

Having new people surround you 

and having to deal with new people every other day 

Its very overwhelming 

I was a loner back in my old school tbh 

And never really had too many genuine friends (not denying the fact that there were some) 

And I was happy with that 

The silence was good 

But now in this new school I honestly feel very weird 

All the new people and the jittery feeling that was supposed to be only on the first day somehow still lingers on every day , time to time as when ever i go out of the class I somehow realize that I don't know many people at all and I'm like a small rabbit in this forest filled with wild bears and lions 

And that thought scares me 'cause I don't know what will happen next .

I am scared that i will make rivals and that will cause a lot of problem in the next two years .

I want my last two years in my school life to be memorable . But i dont know if these memories will be cherish able or dreadful for the rest of my life .

Also , the way SOME people are with me scares me because I give my everything in any relation I have and most of the time I feel those people don't reciprocate it back ( not that i am asking it every time ) but at least the acknowledgement of it would be a start. I would not really talk much about the people as it still feels that I need time to even be able to judge them .

This was an honest rant of mine . And I hope that some of you may relate to this 

I honestly don't know if I will post this or not .

Contemplating about it while I am typing ....

With that said , I take a leave .

 Any of you who feel this way , express yourself ..

After all one experienced person can only help out another one . 

Stay Smiling and Keep Calm 

-Shree 

Friends with pity??

Hey guys...  So have u ever felt like u have that one friend who acts like a friend,  supports u at difficult situations but never actually helps u? ...
Well to make u understand this situation better I'll explain it in a different way.... See if ur have been in trouble before,  people give you sympathy and pity, but actually never really help. It's  like screaming murder without calling the police....
So yea...  I have this rlly huge feeling tht I have a friend whose name I won't take.  She does talk to me a lot,  "SUPPORTS"me in difficult situations but never really helps me.  is it just me or do u guys think something is fishy here?
-Shree