HONEST Rant

Hello Guys

I am extremely sorry for the long break . 

A lot has happened .

To update you guys , I am in 11th grade now.

I have changed schools .

And honestly all of this frustrates me .

Having new people surround you 

and having to deal with new people every other day 

Its very overwhelming 

I was a loner back in my old school tbh 

And never really had too many genuine friends (not denying the fact that there were some) 

And I was happy with that 

The silence was good 

But now in this new school I honestly feel very weird 

All the new people and the jittery feeling that was supposed to be only on the first day somehow still lingers on every day , time to time as when ever i go out of the class I somehow realize that I don't know many people at all and I'm like a small rabbit in this forest filled with wild bears and lions 

And that thought scares me 'cause I don't know what will happen next .

I am scared that i will make rivals and that will cause a lot of problem in the next two years .

I want my last two years in my school life to be memorable . But i dont know if these memories will be cherish able or dreadful for the rest of my life .

Also , the way SOME people are with me scares me because I give my everything in any relation I have and most of the time I feel those people don't reciprocate it back ( not that i am asking it every time ) but at least the acknowledgement of it would be a start. I would not really talk much about the people as it still feels that I need time to even be able to judge them .

This was an honest rant of mine . And I hope that some of you may relate to this 

I honestly don't know if I will post this or not .

Contemplating about it while I am typing ....

With that said , I take a leave .

 Any of you who feel this way , express yourself ..

After all one experienced person can only help out another one . 

Stay Smiling and Keep Calm 

-Shree